There's much fun of all this pre-marriage things!

Sometimes I feel too excited that I could blown my heart

Sometimes I feel anxious

Sometimes I feel afraid

Most of the time I feel like "God I could just life with him for the rest of my life"

And sometimes, a little "God how can I stay with this man. Duh. I'll get super bored" and I'm just not ready to let go of my freedom and be home all day waiting for my husband to come home.

But thanks to Grey's Anatomy, I know that it's okay

It doesn't mean that I dont love him

We all need spaces

We all need a little fresh air

It's ok to sometimes get bored and just dont want to text him

Or if you dont want to be hugged

Or if you just want to hang out with your friend

It dont make you become a bad partner tho

We got a lifetime together

We will soon feel so fed up and sick of each other

if we dont have other things to do

I wish we all just could tolerate ourself

Sometimes love is in the air

Sometimes it's just tough

You know what's the reason behind baby blues?

Because most of the time we pushed ourself too much

To love

But love doesnt need to be forced

It shouldnt

You know how's most of housewifes is becoming so grumpy?

Because they dont have any life

They stuck in their house with the dishes and dirty clothes

Please dont make me feel that way

Because we all need recognition

Not just man

Woman do too

I need it too

I love,

But I also want to enjoy things

Admires myself

Feel good on my own skin

Be proud of my achievement

And so on

I wanted to

And I should

And Im allowed to do it without anyone’s permission

Nor without anyone’s justification

And now Im so proud of myself

Of knowing myself better

And knowing what I want better

But sometimes Im afraid that you're not ready for it

Because most men don't

Yeah they dont want a strong-willed woman who know herself