some of you wont even think that im ever contemplating life. contemplating future.
some of you wont even think that i dont like to be around people.
some of you wont even think that im shaking when i have to present something i front of people.
some of you wont even think that im so insecure of my appearance.
some of you wont even think that im feeling so useless.
some of you wont even think that im afraid to be hated.
spme of you wont even think that im unhappy.

guys,
none of you know me.
if my feeling is a puzzle, i shared every pieces to every single person, to know part of me.  and none of you get all the pieces, or even get enough piece to figure out.

i just want you to please give me space. and dont think that you know everything. even if you know me forever, doesnt mean that you know me. you just dont know.

i tried to tell my feeling to some of you. but you just think that im kidding when i said i consider death as a better choice.

but i cant  tell you guys, except if we both drunk. so i cant tell what i feel and what bothered me, nd the next day you will forget